Tuesday, March 3, 2009

085. (body parts series, part two, number one.)

this is a little more personal than i usually get on here.

promessa, 2009. acrylic. copyright catherine palmeno.

the next time you say forever i'm will punch you in your face.
just because you don't believe it, doesn't mean i didn't mean it.
you never know when i will show you the never.
neko case.

i have a habit of self-sabotaging. i don't trust easily, and i tend to stay in the shallow end of the pool when it comes to any sort of relationship. i find every time i dive into the deep end, i drown. i've been promised a lot in this short life, by all sorts of men and boys and friends. i don't promise anything anymore.

i've realized, for a feminist, i sure have let men tug me around and ruin my good time.

so, as a closer to my body parts series, i did one for myself. i've been thinking a lot about trust lately. i've been observing other people and their relationships, and with my own broken anniversary coming up, i felt compelled, i guess. i did my hands as my body part. the instruments that help me create also help me destroy myself. my most reoccurring dream is where i lose my fingers. every talent i have, i do with my hands. violin, drawing, writing. plus the fact that i feel cursed in a way, like everyone who says anything to me has their fingers crossed. so, here it is:

the colors came out a little off in the photo, and there are still some corrections that i am doing. and part of it is wet in the picture. but yeah.

as for the symbolism: the gesture is obvious; lilies are my favorite flower and have innocent connotations. the severance of the hand is from my nightmares, along with the blood. the banner says promise in italian.

speaking of art, i am peeing myself over watchmen.


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